"because when I'm riding, all i feel is free"

Did chorus around the barn, I got there at eight and left around five. I ended up getting done a little early so, I rode Flame bareback with a bridal and we cantered around the arena. It was so amazing the music that was being played was perfect<3. I can't wait until we can just take off in a field. During my lunch break I cantered with Buck in the soft saddle. (His canter is amazing, so easy to ride) I guess he was feeling good because he tried to buck. I could tell he was happy. Most of the little kids work with him, he doesn't really get pasted the slow trot with them lol. I also ended up riding Cody, the barn pony who is like 12 hands. We rode outside in his pasture bareback with just a halter and trotted around. I must have looked so funny on him considering I'm 5'9 1/2 haha. So I guess today was pretty good. Although I know I'm going to be sore tomorrow!

Asswagon? is that really his last name?!

Uhh yeah some guy on facebook's last name is Asswagon. lmao. Me and Ashley found this out at the water park when we were facebook creepin while tanning. Moves like Jagger by Marron 5 ft. Christina Aguilera, is amazing I love that song. Plus My father said that tonight we can drive my car to the gas station on the back country roads to get drinks for tomorrow. Last Saturday I was so dizzy and almost passed out. I swear its been super hot this summer, but its better then ten inches of snow!
Moving on today was pretty good. Joshie and I messed around at church racing threw the halls ways like eight year olds it was pretty fun I must admit xD We were there to paint the little kids area. My tag on my shirt is inc the freak out of me!!!! mmmk I'm better. I honestly don't feel like typing sorry guys.

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Swimming above water.

Okay so I just looked over my blog/layout and it looks pretty depressing and deep. I didn’t mean for it to turn out this way. It used to be pink and have Taylor Swift lyrics believe it or not. My thoughts are very scattered to night so I'm going to type whatever comes to my head. First of Tumblr is going really slow. I want to take my car out for a drive but no. I just got back from mowing the lawn for two and a half hours. PLEASE just let me drive my car down the freakin road parents of mine. Umm Jordan is constantly on my mind so I thought I'd throw him in there. Tomorrow I am going to the water park with Ashley and Josh. Then out for brunch with the family for my grandparents birthdays. Uhh oh yeah ealier today I went to the barn. Put a fan up in Flame's stall so he won't get so hot and sweaty. We rode in the indoor arena for like ten minutes then we both were sweating and we only trotted once. So we moved outside were there was a nice breeze. He did really good until my trainer/b.o's air conditioner came on causing him to freak and me pull really hard on his mouth to keep  my balance. Poor baby :(  My mom is in the shower right now. While I am waiting for her to get out so i can get in. Until then I shall smell like grass and horses. Not a bad mix..i guess.

peace.love
Morgan <3

She just wants to feel wanted.

My head is just not where its suppose to be.
I don't understand why these things keep happening to me.
It felt so right
How did it turn into a thunder storm?
The bright light is blinding my sight.
Get ready for the fight of your little life.
Cause when the thunder roars.
When the rain pelts on my face.
I come alive and remember the day you saved me.
Oh Lord, come into to me.
Lift me up off my feet, I need you here.
I'm stuck so deep.
This world is full of lies.
Nothing I do is right.
Maybe I should take a leap, of faith.
Trust my hear on to you.
Oh Lord, come into to me.
Take me away to a place I belong.
(C) Morgan C. July 2011

There is no way to describe what I'm feeling. I failed my driving test again and have to send some crap off to the state asking them what I should do next. Then Shelbi wants to go ride Flame at the barn. I say "H*** no!"  Now Jordan is ignoring me and pretends he doesn't even know me. I doubt he can say he didn't feel anything when we were together? I'm on my period so obviously that helps nothing.
URGH! I just see all theses couples every where I look! I swear I'm gonna be forever alone. FOREVER. Why can't the right guy come and sweep me off my feet? You can't help who you like and don;t like, but my feels are there for a reason.

Lonely Nation - Switchfoot.

"Lonely Nation"

She turns like the ocean
She tells no emotion
She's been gunning down the fight

She's just reminiscing
Blood, sweat, and one thing's missing
She's been breaking up inside, inside

Singing without tongues
Screaming without lungs
I want more than my lonely nation
I want more than my lonely nation
Desperate we are young
Seperate we are one
I want more than my desperation
I Want more than my lonely nation

We are the target market
We set the corporate target
We are slaves of what we want
We're just not amused
And we're just used to bad news
We are slaves of what we want

Singing without tongues
Screaming without lungs
I want more than my lonely nation
I want more than my lonely nation
Desperate we are young
Seperate we are one
I want more than my desperation
I Want more than my lonely nation

Lonely, lonely

Don't leave me hollow
I'm tired
Don't leave me hollow
I'm tired of feeling low
Of feeling hollow
I'm tired of feeling low
Of feeling hollow
I'm tired of feeling low
Of feeling hollow
I'm tired of feeling low
Of feeling hollow
Of feeling hollow
Of feeling hollow

Singing without tongues
Screaming without lungs
Want more than my desperation
I want more than my lonely nation
Desperate we are young
Separate we are one
I want more than my lonely nation
I want more than my lonely nation
I want more than my lonely nation
I want more than my lonely nation 

Days on end

I just feel depressed and I can't explain why. Its just this over welming feeling that no matter what I do it never goes away. Maybe for a few moments, but then it comes back and shatters my good mood. I guess it doesn't help that I'm tired, the back of my knee hurts and i have butt load of chores to do. I have an ace bandage on my knee, but I still want to go riding Flame today and work on dressage. When I think about it I'm not really sure what happended to my knee its like a sharp pain when ever i bend it. Well atleast its better then it was yesterday.   I think I need to go to the Chiropractor. My lower back has been aching and my neck gets a sharp pain when I turn it to the right or left. :/ I'm just full of complains today and the worst part is its only eleven in the morning.

My grandparents are supose to be coming over today. Hopefully if my grandma does freak out about my knee I can ask my grandpa to take me out to the barn. I wish my dad was home from work...speaking about my dad! Yesterday we got him an xbox for fathers day. He loved it :D Wich I knew he would anyways lol.

I'm sorta in a writing mood. I just don't know what to write about. I love role play games, but when i don;t feel like writing my post turn into crap. Then all the other rpgers get upset because you haven't posted in days. then they join other rpgs and forget about you all together. I think I should just listen to Switchfoot and sit outside or maybe walk up to the mail box with sweetpea. Then the question is what do i do after that? I need to keep  myself busy so I don't have time to think. Or read my bible. that always seems to help.

Hello Hurricane, you can't silence my love.

Again sorry for the lack of posting, I've been threw a roller coaster of whats called life. Lets start off with after I lied to my parents about being at Nathan's and Jordan's, I snuck out with Whitney out the basement door and we talked for about five minutes or less until we heard a toe truck coming for her car. So we both took off running to her car and she ran like half way down the gravel road we're her car was. I stood there at the edge of our property and the road my eyes were like deers just gazing at her shadow like figure moving and the high lights of the truck. I freaked out and was sure I would some how get caught that night so I took off running as fast as I could back to the basement door and up to my room. Where I lied in bed texting her and fell asleep. Woke up the next morning to a clear skies and ready for a full day of work. The next few days went by slow, until  June 7th were my mom and dad found out I snuck out. My father broke my phone in half and knocked the henges off my door. They took my desktop and iPod put them in a box and stuffed them in the back of my dad's car. They also took my car away, but they ended up getting it fixed anyway. Tonight I just got my desk top back and my car :) So YAYA. Although my dad is considering shuting off the internet and not even having cell phones. Which scares the crap out of me. If I don't have the internet I will die, I repeats WILL die. My phone I could careless, yet not because how would I be able to call someone if my car broke down or if I get raped in a parking lot? Maybe I just have really bad anxiety. I don't know what to think any how.

Tonight I just got back from spending the night with my trainer/B.O. It was such a blast!! My friends also stayed the night one night and I stayed a extra night. It was such an amazing feeling waking up and looking outside right to the barn. Although the  best part was seeing Flame's papers and my trainer/B.O got me copies of it. And holy molely Flames show name isn't "Tame The Flame" its "Tame The Fame". I was shocked so this means his barn name should have been Fame not Flame. lol I think Flame fits him muchhhh better. I also got to see a photo of when he was baby colt. HE WAS ADORABLE. That little white nose, so cute XD I'm obsessed with him if you couldn't tell. I feel like every time I go out there our relationship just grows. Pretty soon its gonna be a full bloomed rose. Until then I will work on his additude. My trainer/B.O also said he has so much talent! Also if we show it will be the first show for the both of us :D He's just something else, I couldn't live without. Tomorrow I get to go back out there and work all day. Ohh and we also got a new boarder today. She toured the barn and BAM she wanted to bring her horse out asap. So I'm excited to meet Rocky the new horse and his owner.

As for right now I'm going to read my bible and read "Power of a praying teen" :) Then listen to my iPod until i fall asleep. As much as I loved being at the barn and all. There still is no place like home. I know SweetPea missed me thats for sure. She's snuggling on my lap keeping me warm. Even though its like 80 outside and muggy. lol

Good Night.
Morgan Elizabeth <3